Can You see my smile? It's there but its been hiding for so long, I think it is hard for it to show it's true self. I just have to take a moment to be thankful for so many blessings. My friends... You know who you are. I mean my friends who no matter what have stuck thru this mess. Whether you were holding my hand, listening or praying from afar. I do not want sympathy. It is HARD for me to ask for help. God is so good this time He knew I wouldn't and I didn't have to. I was flat on my butt and HE picked me up. I am a giver and I will give you the shirt off my back and the last dollar I have. It is not a good feeling when you stumble on this journey and you think nobody is there to catch your fall. I know I have made so many mistakes but I am not looking at them as mistakes anymore. I forgive me. I see my "mistakes" as a stepping stone on this journey. I can't have regrets because right now today... I love my life. I love who I have become. I love the me that God made me. I love the freedom to be able to enjoy what God has for me and my children. I have stopped asking WHY? It just is what it is and I will have patience to see it thru. I am not looking for love it will have to come and find me. I am just going to be a good mom and love the Lord.
...and Create everyday because that makes me happy.
So my next post will be full of pictures of my feet in the sand.